No body knows just how sick he's been. I didn't even know until recently. The truth is, I didn't even realize how bad it was.... until tonight. I know he's in pain, and no one is willing to help. And all the stress that we've been under hasn't helped at all... not that it matters, at least not anymore. He wont go to the hospital. I can understand why. Who wants to spend their last moment in a cold hospital bed away from their family, alone?
I think he's leaving, and not in the walking kind of way of leaving. He's been so sick lately... And I have tried so hard to make it better. I can't... I know I can't, but I'll still try.
I love him so much, and his son loves him so much. All I ever wanted was a family, and now its braking. You can't have a family if a piece of it is completely broken away... forever. How are we supposed to survive this? How are we supposed to go on? I had so many dreams... so many, and they were all about my family. All of us, together. And now? We're just supposed to except the fact that he wont be here? How are we supposed to survive that?
No. Nobody knows.
Crushed doesn't even discribe the way I feel. Its so much deeper. So much more. A piece of me is dieing and I can't stop it...

This is kind of a funny story. I know the boys parents are probably freaking out just like we would if it was Vincynt up there like that. I still find it kind of funny though. They brought out the national guard for it and all.
Story is HERE.

P.S.- The boy is fine. They're just trying to get the balloon down to get him out of it.

Oh yeah... and Fort Collins, Co is where we live now.

P.S.S- The boy was not inside after all...

I should never ever ever try to help people out ever again. I'm nice, I'm generious and what do I get? Told I'm a bad mother, and a bad person and the cops called on ME. Why? Because I was kind and tried to help a woman that I THOUGHT was down on her luck out. Teach me to continue trust anybody again.
Sometimes I hate myself for being so stupid. Why do I continue this? What is wrong with me?

Oi. I guess I need a new brain, don't I?

You know, I really hate it when single, childless people try to tell me how to parent my child. He's my child. I think *I* know how to parent him just fine, thank you very much. I didn't ask for your advise, don't give it. If I wanted your advise, I would have asked for it.

Oi... Anyway...

Watching season 4 of Doctor Who right now. The DoctorDonna. lol

Hopefully we'll have a place soon and be out of this motel room. These peope here are driving me up the wall.

Hope you all are doing well.

So yeah... Long time no post... from me that is.
We're here in Colorado. The job thing (you know, the reason why we came) didn't work out, which is fine. whatever. some people are just stupid that way.
But we're here and we're doing fine. We're "staying" at the Motel 6 off of I-25 in Fort Collins, Co. We're about 15-20 Miles from Whyoming (I hope I spelled that right. lol).
But it is just wonderful here. We love it!
Anyway, just wanted to make a post and say hey. I'll let you all know when we get a place and have internet again. lol

So yeah... I have really big news and I almost forgot to post about it. Mainly becuase I've been far to busy.

WE'RE MOVING TO COLORADO!!!

Yep! We are so excited. We leave on Tuesday! Woot!

Also, I got my Belly peirced today! That was exciting. I love it! :D Been wanting to do it for a long time and finally was able to do it.
I'm still a baby when it comes to needles, so it's a good thing that my boobs were to big for me to see. lol. The End is all that matters though. :) It looks awesomely good! :D

P.S.- I love my hunny and baby.

All I have to say is "What the Hell??" to This .

Are they serious? I thought it was a new movie coming out. lol

Anyway.

I'm updating my store so stop by and check it out once in a while. :)

So I haven't really posted lately... but I've been in a lot of pain in my lower tummy the last week. It started with me thinking that it was a blater infection, but I don't think so anymore. It's a sharp pain and then after the pain it's very sore. It's so much worse when I am standing then when I am sitting though. I think that's odd. I also haven't had my period in the last 2 months (2 months late, and yes, I took 3 pregnancy tests last month. All neg.).
So, David is making me call the doctor tomorrow. I really don't want to, but I guess I need too. I'll see if I can find me another doctor that actully knows what he's doing.

Anyway... that's my update.
Hope everyone is doing well.

OMG! Would you believe it?? I didn't think that I was going to be able to get one, but here I am holding it and loving it. :)
I got a brand new laptop for my birthday! :-O Oh My I can't believe it. :D


So yeah... wanted to share my joy. :)

How are all of you?

Well, I'm off to work. :)

First off, Happy birthday to mercysillusion! I hope its a good one sweetie! :)




Okay.... so I'm all excited now. I had a good birthday (which is shocking. lol) and I found out (obviously) what this "BIG" present that I have to wait for is. :) I'll have it by the end of Aug. but I am so excited (and impatient)!! lol.
I am getting a brand new LAPTOP!!!!
OMG! I'm so excited!!! hehe.
(It's from my hunny. You know... that man that loves me. lol)

But yeah, I got 2 movies "The Incredables" and the new "Indiana Jones" (that was more for David). A new pair of pants and a shirt from Torrid. My favorate store. I got a gift card from my aunt as well... which is fabulious. :)

But any way... I'm happy now. :)